I am sorry

I apologize, then a blog title contains the word art the blog probably should include some sort of art or don't you think so.

I have searched the web a little for some drawings and art and I can honestly just say that I am kind of jealous to those who have the abillity to create so fantastic, inventive, awesome, cool things. But we go back a step here;

1. Art is a huge word for many many things. It doesn't matter what it is or how it looks everything can be/is art.

2. I am saying that I want to be an little art soul, I want to draw things, I want to create things so I have some % of will.
But in my opinion I think that I never fulfill the characteristic for an "art soul". I maybe have the will, I maybe can draw something, (everything can be art) but even if I create something it doesn't mean that it has an meaning.
If I don't have an thought behind it or have a deep feeling or emotion for the so-called art piece it isn't very right. Because:

An art work should be created with your feelings, your thought and life if it isn't it's just impersonally.

I have been told or no but then then I hear artists talk about their work I actually feel a bit ashamed.

People can tell me that I can draw and "could be an artist" but wait hey I sit and draw my drawings for a start it's serious but then is just doodle-scribble-scrawl and it turn up to be no good but sometimes I take it through either way, I look at the picture and almost thinks "thank god it's over" and starts with a new thing and same again.

Maybe you need more tries to make something good but my patience isn't that great. Then I here from others and se these big crafts, paintings and sculptures thats made by humans who really love what they are doing, (who really love it the whole way through) I wish I was like a person of those. But if I just wish to be like that, is it a true wish then? and why am I then so opionated to be somone I don't am.
I don't have many answers but I sure have many questionmarks.

I would probably had written a presentation of me for the blog but I'm still not sure if you should take the opportunities to be seen on the internet or if you should hide from it. We have positive and negative effects like in everything.

[I'm going to change this text later I think]
Some day we all have to change our way from kid to adult, i will stay kiddie and not take the responsibiility for troublesome things but that is a childish thought, the world is pretty scary, one thought again. though I want to learn more and I would really wanted to begin the school right from the beginning again , it feels like my time are slipping by and it kinda do that I don't know what to start to learn so I be running in circles and cross around the room waisting time, it's hard to deside with way to choose. I am still a girl in a lonly world and i kinda make misstakes and graduates

Okey guys I honestly don't have the strength to read through this, and i have wrote it by myself.. so I let it be like this for a while and it can be embarrassing later but yeayea just stay cool. Either way now it's one week then it will be a trip to poland and germany yey